 | Watching too many soap operas
as a child (!) To read the whole story, click here
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| My shrink told me I bite the roots
off because it is symbolic of my seperation from my "family roots
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| Stress / divorce (my own case -
Amanda - never mind the fact that I started at 11!)
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| Sexual abuse / other abuse
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| Overwhelming mothers
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| Bad relationship with father (my
own case too - my dad suffered from the guilt feelings for years, until I learnt the truth
about trich)
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| xxxx's latest therapist is
"just trying to get into his head and figure what is really bothering him."
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| Spiritual problems |
| Demons |
| Looking for attention |
| Want to make yourself ugly - cannot accept
attention/compliments etc. (Self mutulation) |
| In '89 Dr. xxxr from xxxxr Medical Foundation in
xxxxx, said that mine was sexually related, I told him that I disagreed, I had NEVER been
sexually abused, I did mention to him when I was 10 yrs old, a boy of about 12 asked my
inside his grassy fort, and said "I bet I can tickle you", which I replied,
"I'm not ticklish", he then proceeds to start tickling me, and touches my
privates, I immediately ran home, knowing this is was not appropriate. So xxxxr plays the
word association game; I = eye and the
tickling =my
touching to find that "special lash". So, that was his first reason why I
started to pull my lashes, there were others. One other, I never grow up, which at home
& as a teen I was always the more mature one. I never considered the touch as sexual
abuse (that was in '66), but as children's normal growth of "I'll show you mine"
type of experiences. So, after Dr.xxx i pretty much gave up on the medical
prof.(therapy) treating me for trich. |
| She has seen a shrink who told her she needed to
go to a bar and get a man |
| I have talked to my doctor, but he said it was an
image problem......that I want to be perfect. Trust me, if you saw me, you would know
there is no way EVER that I would or could be perfect as I am morbidly obese. |
| I read many mini-case studies of practices used by
therapists- one was to "have the child collect all hairs pulled in an envelope for
each day"- these were to brought to the next appointment at which the therapist would
"perform a scalp check" to evaluate whether the collected hairs matched with the
apparent amount pulled as per the bald/thined areas- reward and/or punishment was dealt
out with amount of hairs pulled/not pulled. Another therapist suggested to hold the
child's hands at their sides for one minute for each hair pulled when caught pulling- The
only one that seemed to have any merit was one that talked about parents changing the
relationship with the child- but it implied that the pulling was caused by the parents.
When he finished I told him briefly about the bb and that most of the ideas would cause
the participants to flip- He said "well you know children are different and respond
differently than an adult and you can have them do things that an adult would
intelectualize..."blah blah blah- I looked at him and told him that he totally missed
my point |
| I went to the Dr. who told me that I was suffering from undiagnosed post natal
depression and he likened my hair pulling to that of an animal who rubs and picks itself
bald in a zoo... having the baby made me feel trapped. |
| Back to the Dr. I went -- again, the hair pulling was brushed under the carpet,
*you probably have a hormonal imbalance after having the baby. We'll work on that, you'll
feel better and you'll stop pulling at your hair... |
| One dr. told my parents it was "their" fault; another said it was a
"stage" I would grow out of (I was in the sixth grade then....now I'm 30)...yet
another prescribed tranquilizers for me in 9th grade and told my parents if I continued to
pull, they needed to instutionalize me! (Great thing for me to hear, huh?) Currently, my
therapist said it was a "preening" thing (much like monkeys who comb thru
eachother's fur to get rid of bugs, etc.)...I'm not so sure how I feel about being
compared to apes!.,,,he also declared it as a form of self-mutilation, and on another day,
he said it was some sort of act of "self-preservation"....go figure? Now I've
been using my 55 min. of his time to educate HIM on trich! :) |
| I was taken to a Dr. at 14 and diagnosed with Alopecia Areata, had the biopsy and
weekly cortisone shots and the wig thing - had to give it up as it pulled two $ 1000.00
custom jobs to pieces. Took to barrettes and body perms. Decided when I was 27 to seek the
psychiatric angle. I was destitute and bankrupt by this time as I was often late for work
due to elaborate last minute
cover-ups which cost me my job on two occasions. I had to seek psychiatric assistance in
order to qualify for a temporary disability allowance from the Government. The doc
insisted it was due to "Ritual Sexual Abuse". I have NEVER been abused. I am,
though, interested in spirituality and metaphysics. |
| my parents were divorced when I was five, and my step father sexually abused me
for years, so the doctor concluded I wanted to be like my biological father (bald) because
he was the only 'kind' man I'd ever known (he emotionally abused us from across the
country....abandonment is good?) and I was a lesbian...hmm...I think I like men too much
for that to be true... |
| Alopecia. Never mind the fact that I told the doctor that I pulled it out, he
still thought it might be alopecia. |