My good friend Camilla wrote a wonderful booklet on how God took away her trich miraculously. I’m still trying to convince her to share the story with us here on my site. As in the previous section, you can see the effect it had on me, when I read her booklet.

Well, months have gone past , and as I was talking to people about trich, I was telling them abt the diet and encouraged them to try it. Well, as I was doing this in South Africa, Camilla was busy doing her thing for trich in the USA. But as I was telling them abt the diet, she was telling them (and helping) them to get freedom from trich by trusting God and ‘dying to their own self and own needs’.

Camilla is a dear friend of mine, and she once asked if I thought that I would have had ‘miraculous’ healing if I had more faith? I said no…. because I know of wonderful, strong Christians who suffer terribly from things like cancer etc… who are not healed, no matter how great their faith are. I told her that I knew that my trich had a very strong physical (chemical) factor and that I can really see the results for eating bad food, within a day. As soon as I eat ‘bad’ foods, I cannot keep my hands out of my hair the next day. I have no doubt at all that certain foods trigger my urges. Of course, this would’t happen if I wasn’t born with trich, but still, the ‘chemical imbalance’ in my body is very easily noticed (by me). I also have no doubt at all that God gave me the JK diet…. In fact, I believed He tried to give it to me, but I stubbornly refused to make us of it, because I knew that I couldn’t go a few hours without chocolates, let alone the rest of my life!

I also know that it is God keeping me on the diet. Not many people could eat the amount of sugar and sweets that I did. In fact, people used to comment on how much sugar I used to consume daily. It is 2 years, and I still struggle. I still want to eat sweets, chocolates, fudge etc. I believe it is God that keeps me on the diet. For me, being on the diet for 2 years is actually a much bigger miracle than being PPF for 2 years.

I know all these things, and I truly, truly believe it to be true in my life.

Yet, when I spoke to Camilla in the week, and she shared how she was helping someone with trich to see how God could help them, I started feeling quite bad. I believe these feelings/thoughts have been in the back of my mind for a long time. (see the previous section). I started feeling like a failure as a Christian. I wondered: If my faith was bigger/stronger, wouldn’t God have been able to heal me miraculously too? Wouldn’t I have been able to ‘die to myself’, and trust God and allow God to give me strength and courage to fight it? Then again I thought…. But why should I suffer like that, if I have the diet which takes away the urges so miraculously? But isn’t that a worldly way? Isn’t that looking at easy solutions, when I should go the difficult way and try and fight it… just will God and willpower?

Camilla replied beautifully, telling me that God healed people in various ways in Bible times and that she believed that what I was giving up for the diet, was my way of ‘dying to myself’, and that she believes that God is helping me with it. I agreed, and felt 5% better. A day or two later Louis and I was discussing something and suddenly I realized… YES, God did heal people in various ways in the Bible times…. Not always in the same way. I felt another 5% better. The next day I wrote abt it to Camilla.

Well, while I wrote it to her, something just happened in my heart. Suddenly I knew! Not with my brain, but with my heart!. I realized that God healed some people by saying: You are healed… you can see… and they did. For others, he spit on the ground, took the mud, put it on the blind guy’s eyes, and told him to go and wash it off in some river or bath or something. God healed some by just speaking, (spiritually), and for others he gave a physical healing… not an immediate healing, but something that He did (physically), and they too had to go and do something, and only then they were healed. I realized: It had nothing to do with me or my faith after all! I was actually a bit high-headed to think that it had to do with me. It hadn’t! It had to do with the plan God chose for me… the plan of healing. Who was I to think that my lack of faith, could prevent God’s way of healing for me? God is so much bigger and all-knowing than us… HE chose my way of healing, NOT my lack of faith. God was in charge, not me!

I just started crying! It was so incredible… this gift of freedom that God gave me… this realization that it wasn’t because God wasn’t satisfied with me, that I had to go the diet-route and Camilla could go the ‘miraculous’ route. It was God’s choice right from the start! Oh, thank you Lord, for freeing me and for showing me that you are so much bigger than me or my lack of faith! Praise your name!

Well, that night, I went to the Bible and looked up the sections where God brought the healing to the blind men. I changed the word blindness to trich…. And just see what I saw while I read this.

Luke 18:40-43

So Jesus stood still and commanded him to be brought to Him. And when he had come near, He asked him, saying: What do you want Me to do for you? He said: Lord, that I may ‘get healing from trich’. Then Jesus said to him: Receive your healing, your faith has made you well.

And immediately he received his healing, and followed Him, glorifying God. And all the people, when they saw it, gave praise to God.

(God gave Camilla her healing… AND HE FOLLOWED HIM, GLORIFYING GOD. AND ALL THE PEOPLE, WHEN THEY SAW IT, GAVE PRAISE TO GOD!")

Then I read John 9:1….

Now as Jesus passed by, He saw a man who had trich from birth. And His disciples asked Him, saying: Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born with trich?. Jesus answered: Neither this man, nor his parents sinned, but that the works of God should be revealed in him. …..

(V6)…When He had said these things, He spat on the ground, and made clay with the saliva, and He anointed the eyes of the blind man with the clay. (he gave him a diet to follow). And He said to him: Go wash in the pool of Siloam. So he went and washed and came back healed from trich.

God didn’t try the ‘spiritual’ route with this guy first. He didn’t even ask him abt his faith. In fact, he said that this guy had trich SO THAT THE WORKS OF GOD SHOULD BE REVEALED IN HIM!

God decided right from the start that this guy would receive a different kind of healing, not just a ‘spiritual’ kind of healing.. but one where something physical had to happen before the healing took place.

I just absolutely marveled when I read this (I still get tears in my eyes while I’m writing this). In Camilla’s way… all the people, when they saw it, gave praise to God. In my way: the works of God should be revealed in Him. No matter which way… God’ will be glorified and praised! God works in mysterious ways, but whatever He does, we can praise and glorify His name for His works are beyond understanding and beyond comprehension. But all I know, that His works are miraculous, no matter which route He chooses. Praise His Holy name!!!

May what I have learnt, touch someone else and give them peace as well.

Thank you Lord!

Nov 8 1998  

I've been reading just here and there in the Bible and was totally amazed to find this section in Mark 8.  What is says to me at this stage, I'm not sure yet.    As with many other things, I don't always get the answer from God immediately.  But I think God just confirmed his various ways of healing to me.   Whether it means that I will someday be totally healed from trich, I don't know.   Judge for yourself and may God speak to you through this too.