In conclusion...

The Lord gave me many, many messages that he would deliver me from TTM.  I was waiting for it with so much expectation.... I truly believed His promises.  I was just waiting for it to happen.  I prayed (even before I accepted Jesus as my Saviour) that He would just take it away from me.  I asked Him to make me stop.  I begged Him and I was prayed for often (after my salvation).   My prayer was that He would take the trich away, and what I meant was that I wanted the urges to disappear and I never even wanted to think about my hair again.  I wanted to be 'normal', like other people who didn't think twice about their hair, except for how it looked.

The bad news is:  It never happened!   God didn't take away my TTM.  I still have TTM and believe I will always have it - for the rest of my life.  Yet, I am so thankful to the Lord for NOT answering my prayer and I actually thank and praise Him for it!!  How can it be?

It took me a while, I admit.  But one day I suddenly realised - the Lord didn't give me what I asked for, but what happened, was that He gave me something much, much better.   I asked for physical healing, but what He gave me was emotional healing!  If He gave me what I asked for, I wouldn't have trich, but the scars and damage that was done to my self-esteem and my soul, after the years and years of pain and suffering that I endured because of trich, would still be there.  He saw further than I could, and gave me the best!  He gave me emotional healing, and he made me a whole person again.  As Steph says, I am a success story of Trich - even though I may still pull...

I believe today that the damage that trich does to your soul, is much greater than the damage to your hair. The Lord knew that, and therefore he gave me the REAL healing - healing that really, really changed my life.   If He only took away the trich, I would still have all the hurts and pain that I lived with for 21 years.  I would still not be able to be a whole person.

That is why I can say with full conviction:   THANK YOU LORD, FOR NOT ANSWERING MY PRAYERS!  I bring all the honour and glory and praises to our wonderful Father in heaven.  Praise His wonderful name!