The Lord will prepare the way

Today in church I realized something which really touched me deeply. On 20/8/96, the Lord gave me a very specific message..  He told me to proclaim my healing from trich to the ends of the earth. 
When I got the message  I still had all the urges and I asked:  What  are you saying to me Lord? Please tell me!  A month later I started  the John Kender diet, my urges diminished dramatically, and even
though the Lord didn't heal me the way I asked for, he brought  wonderful emotional healing from the terrible pain I experienced because of trich.  In fact, much better healing than that which I
asked for.  Isaiah 48:20    ... Announce this with shouts of joy and proclaim it.   Send it out to the  ends of the earth;   say, "The Lord has redeemed his servant Jacob."

Now, 3 years, and 2 days after I started the diet, I will be talking about the JK diet AND assisting with a
Christian workshop about coping with trich in your life. Is this God's provision or not? Praise His name!

I am just very humbled to realize that He has prepared me long ago, for things that I had no idea of. I definitely never considered anything like this happening to me. When I got the message, I was
still dead scared that people at work (where I had e-mail and internet access), would discover what Websites I was visiting. I had no idea at all that later on I would have my own PC at home, and
that my husband would get us internet and that I would have my own website. I never ever suspected it. And being able to attend a retreat...it was a dream... but it was like an impossible dream. Now
I'm not only attending, but talking there too! God surely is taking me on roads that I would never have imagined in my whole life.

A few days later, I was getting quite scared about talking at the retreat.   Not so much about talking about the diet but about the spiritual workshop.  I know in my heart that I am not up to it, my spiritual life is not what it should be, and what do I have to offer? How can I tell people about God and give them 'answers', when I know that I'm failing God so often?  But our wonderful Lord, through the Holy Spirit told me that He will help me!  This is what I got a few days later.

Isaiah 45:2  - I will go before you and will level the mountains...

Isaiah 45:5 - ...  I will strengthen you, though you have not acknowledged me, so that from the rising of the sun to the place of its setting, men may know there is none besides me.  I am the Lord, and there is no other.

In the Afrikaans Bible, it actually says:  The people from the East to the West, will know that I am the only God.  (smile.. and there will surely be people from the East, to the West, at the retreat, won't there?

PRAISE GOD!!  - I'm not capable, but He is.  I don't know what to say, but He does.. and even though I'm not capable, I am willing... may God use me to His glory.

One night in church we sang this song, and it really became the need of my heart to be like this - esp. at the retreat - so that I can give glory back to Him:

.... Make me like a precious stone

crystal clear and finely honed.

Light of Jesus shining through

Giving glory back to You.