Diary Entries

becoming Pull free (month 4)

Nov. 13, 2001
Day 92!! Eight days away from the big 100! Today is the first day in a
long time that I didn't get a headache. My hair has definitely "gotten
over a hump". In the past couple of days I have noticed that it is
looking much better. The hair appointment day is December 8. Now that it
is growing in more, I am anxious to see if my hairdresser can alter the
style just a bit to do a better job at blending.

Nov. 14, 2001
Another headache. But I have noticed a trigger - chocolate. Whenever I
eat chocolate, I almost always get a headache. My hair didn't look that
great today - mind you I didn't washit and style it this morning - I
just brushed it in place. Day 93 pull free!!! 7 days to go!

Nov. 15, 2001
pf 94!!

Nov. 16, 2001
pf 95!! Headaches getting better

Nov. 17, 2001
I have noticed that my hair is starting to depress me again. It is still
clumpy and uneven. Darn!! 96 days, at least!

Nov. 18, 2001
Some good news to report. I went out for dinner tonight and someone
commented on how my hair looked "great" and how I shouldn't I "shouldn't
change a strand." I felt really good about this especially seeing as I
have stared to feel so down and out about how I look. A while ago - it
was as if I had gotten over a "hump". I don't feel that way anymore.
Then, she said something else that made me feel not so good. I guess I
am going to have to learn to deal with these comments. She mentioned
how I used to have a "problem with my hair before" and I should be
careful about adding hi-lights etc. I kind of cringed when I heard
this. It is so hurtful to realize just how many people saw the bald
spots. All along, I felt, "Oh, no one will notice - but everyone did I
guess." On the other hand, I guess I have to look at the cold hard
reality - I DID have bald spots and people DID notice them. Day 97!

November 19, 2001
pf day 98!!

November 20, 2001
Bad stomach cramps - won't write long. Pull free day 99!

November, 21, 2001
Day 100!!! I did it. I wanted to write a lot today but I have another
one of those headaches. Report cards are now done so I am hoping that
tomorrow night I can start to relax more. I DID put in a call today for
that piece of art that I wanted.

Nov. 22, 2001
Day 101

Nov. 23, 2001
Day 102!! BUT my hair has reached another awkward stage. It looks
terrible.

Nov. 24, 2001
Bad hair day again. I am just getting so discouraged. I went and purchased
that piece of artwork to reward myself for the 100th day thing. Even that
did not make me feel good. I feel so ugly. Day 103

Nov. 25, 2001
Day 104 pf - still really yucky looking hair.

Nov. 26. 2001
OF- I'm going to regroup. I cannot continue dwelling on how bad I look. On
Dec. 21, I think I will have hit a new record. The longest I have gone pf
is about 3.5 months. I think that Dec. 21 will be a new record for me. So
...... I am almost there. I have to keep thinking about that. Day 105

Nov. 27, 2001
My hair still looks awful and I'm so depressed. Day 106!

Nov. 28, 2001
Day 107!

Nov. 29, 2001
Day 108

Nov. 30
The end of another month and I am still pull free. In one week from
now, I get my hair done. Hopefully it will be long enough for
hi-lites. I need a boost. Day 109

Dec. 1
I need to use a lot of hair spray to make my hair cooperate. this is
very bad as it gives my hair that coarse texture that makes me want to
pull. Day 110

Dec. 2
Day 111

Dec. 3
Still lousy looking hair. Day 112

Dec. 4
day 113

Dec. 5
I am noticing something interesting about my hair growing in. When I
used to pull it out a lot in one area, the hair would grow back gray
)because I am going gray). I would end up with a gray patch of hair
root to tip. Now I am not pulling out the strands so when the hair grows
in I am only seeing gray roots. Day 114 Improvement??

Dec. 6
Day 115 - Off to bed - really sick

Dec. 7
Still really sick Day 116

Dec. 8
Appointment day once more. I was worried that the bug that I caught a
few days ago would have prevented me from going to the hairdresser's.
But I was feeling fine when I got up this morning. I am finally on the
road to recovery. I am finally looking forward to getting my hair done.
My hairdresser was really impressed with the improvement. she was so
impressed that she added a whole bunch of hi-lites to it. Now, I just
hope that I can get it to look this way tomorrow. Anyway, off to a
birthday party. Day 117

Dec. 9
I got my first Christmas tree of my new place up today. Feeling tired
and so I should be off to bed. Day 118

Dec. 10
My hair is not looking as good as it did on the day I got back from the
hairdresser. I am still sort of happy, I guess. Day 119

Dec. 11
Day 120
Man am I tired.

Dec. 12
Sick again. What is with me???? Day 121

Dec. 13
I am starting to get more and more disappointed. What is it with me?
Maybe I should take more time with a blow dryer in the morning. There
has got to be another way. Day 122

Dec. 14, 2001
Another bad hair day. Day 123

Dec. 15
I am really tired. Here is proof of Day 124 anyway

Dec. 16
Tomorrow I have an eye appointment so I will write tomorrow's journal
entry on the day after tomorrow (my eyes will be dilated). I am on day
125. My hair looked really bad today.

Dec. 17
Day 126

Dec, 18
I am feeling sick again. WOW! This has not been a good time for me
healthwise. I should sign off. Day 127!!