Compliments and me...

I am a woman...... so (smile)... I like compliments.  But since I can remember, I have never been touched much by certain compliments - compliments on things that I had nothing to do with.  For instance, when people would compliment my eyes - I never felt much.   God gave me the eyes, I didn't do anything to make it pretty or anything, so I cannot take any credit for that.  Of course, compliments like:  That is a nice dress, you've lost weight (smile) etc., those were compliments that I did like.

When I stopped pulling from my head, I started getting compliments for my hair.  People who knew absolutely nothing abt my pulling history would compliment me on my hair.  Oh, I loved those compliments!  Once a hairdresser told me:  You're so lucky with your hair - you have no problems with your hair!  I just giggled and thought:  Little do you know! 

These compliments about my hair has always been very, very special to me, because I knew exactly how hard I was working to get my hair in the state it was.  I knew that every strand of hair was there because I worked very hard to keep it there.

A few weeks ago, I went to someone my mom knew.  This woman complimented my hair - saying it was wonderful, gorgeous etc.   She really went on and on.  Guess what?   I felt nothing?  I just thought.... well, God gave me thick and shiny hair, not me.  I can't really 'accept' this compliment.

Only later that night, I realized what had happened.  I can accept a hair compliment just like any other compliment - not thinking like a trichster!  Wow! 

It is these very small things, that just keeps on reminding me of the healing that is taking place in my heart - healing that God is bringing about.  Thank you Lord!