HI my friends!

Hope you are all doing well.

I read through 10 posts or so, and you know what caught my attention? All the mentioning of being PF for 1 day or 120 days etc. That is SUCH an accomplishment! Because I’m not on the BB much anymore, I have almost ‘forgotten’ abt everyone who achieves this wonderful thing – being PF or PPF – or even getting more control – not going into pulling sprees etc. I remember the first day I could report one PF day – the excitement, the pride, the hope. I’m so glad that we know today that there IS hope! When I came onto the BB in August 1996 (wow, is it so long ago already?), I didn’t think there was hope. Almost no one was ever posting successes, and I got very depressed. I want to thank every person who posts their successes, AND for the people keeping up the game stats. Remember, every time you post, it isn’t only strengthening you, or showing your accomplishment, but it is also helping other people out there who doesn’t think there is hope. Like many other people I can say – If "I" can do it, anyone can – because I also never thought that there is any hope for me, I never thought I could go 1 day PF. Well, by the end of this month, it will be 2 and a half years PPF for me. PPF yes, NOT PF – but hey, it is 99.99% better than it was before 2.5 years ago! Even though I’m PPF, and even though I still struggle with trich – I now have control! I don’t get pulling sprees, and even though I struggle with my legs and my pubic hair, I HAVE HAIR!! And you know what, even if I do pull or scratch – my world don’t fall apart – because today I can say that I love myself – and that I am worthy – something I couldn’t say or believe for the previous 21 years! Yes of course when I go through a hard time with trich, it gets to me. Of course I get angry, hurt, upset. But where those feelings were my daily feelings for 21 years, now it is something that I get very rarely, and I snap out of it relatively quickly.

For those who don’t know me, I contribute my physical success/control directly to the John Kender diet (JK diet) – you can find lots and lots of info abt it on my trich site (jly2.com/ttm). Also, I learnt many, many tricks and behavoural changes that I could make use of, here on the BB and on the TTM mailer. My emotional healing I contribute very strongly to the BB and the TTM mailer – here I learnt about hope, support, love, caring and made many, many wonderful friends to whom I owe SO much. Without each one of them being willing to post here, share their lives, their struggles, their hopes, tips and support, my life would have been empty today. My life changed completely when I discovered the BB 2.5 years ago – and I thank and praise God for that. Without Him leading me here, and helping me through the last 2.5 years, I would NEVER have been able to be the person who I am today.

I thank Him and you all today!

Much love

Amanda